“You are miserable because you want to be miserable.” This was what a priest shared in his homily. And it’s true. Just like me, I feel so miserable not knowing that I am the one who is making my own self miserable. Tend to blame other people but in the first place, it’s just me to be blamed! Human as I am, I will just get back on my feet with being miserable after bursting with angry and negativity.
One thing I know is that I need some help – even just a slight help in taking care of my kids! It will be like making XP points with children and not on playing online games with those online buddies. Being with kids is more important even just sitting around without doing anything. Or playing with them even with a piece of paper or a cartoon, it will be a great thing that kids will treasure in their whole life. While kids are so young, they don’t need expensive toys, or anything. All they need is the attention of parents so that when they will grow old, they will not be attention seekers and they will not be having some personality problems that will hinder their life’s progress.
As for me, I know I am too bossy and my voice is kind of loud. Sometimes, I will get exhausted mostly that I am just in the house for all these years. I am not complaining but I am just human that I have my needs and wants. Sometimes, I also want to be out even just for a joy ride, even just for few minutes during weekends or whatever. Sigh!